Deciding to write this post was an extremely hard decision but right now I believe it’s for the best. My life doesn’t look the way I imagined it would and, although it sounds melodramatic, it’s not necessarily a bad thing. I’ve made a lot of mistakes and I’ve allowed myself to remain stuck at a standstill throughout a good chunk of my twenties. Some of my mistakes have been made publicly and others have been made quietly. Nevertheless, I’ve had my “ah ha” moment during the month of October. So what will I be up to for a while?
PURSUING MY BACHELOR’S DEGREE
That’s right. I’m going back to school full time and I’ll still be working at my job full time…for the time being. I think this is God’s version of “hurry up and wait” because there’s a lot of time involved in this, ha. Now beyond that I can’t really give anymore details because I’m choosing not to. I know that sounds a little crazy given my transparent nature but it’ll make sense later. There have also been quite a few “shut up and do the work” signs that have come my way this month so I’m following suit. There comes a time (ha) when you stop dragging your feet, mulling over the mistakes you’ve made and look at the pieces in front of you to see that things are really a blessing in disguise. Okay, my parents may have played a huge role in giving me some tough love and pep talk words of wisdom that pretty much said what I just typed. That’s not even half of what they said but you get the point.
With that being said, blogging is going to slow down a considerable amount while I transition back into being a student and balancing my job along with it. This particular season is calling for me to be super focused on executing my plans instead of merely talking about them. I’m the person who always had an answer for the “what are your plans” questions that we’re inevitably socialized to ask others in life and it turns out that hasn’t really worked so well for me. I’ve spent too much time trying to prove things instead of doing them and life is too short to put energy into making sure my plans look like a trophy people can show off.
I can’t go back in time to change how a good chunk of my twenties has turned out and I wouldn’t even if I had the chance. You couldn’t pay me to relive my early twenties. I like the realizations and growth that have accumulated at 27. I’m 110%, ten toes down with being a part of the late twenties club and I’m okay with sacrificing my pride to get things done. As much as I’d love to tell you what’s coming up next, I can actually wait this time. Who knows, maybe my next blog post will be about it.
In the mean time, I’ll still be on Instagram here and there so don’t be afraid to reach out to me to check in. As always, thank you for reading my content, interacting with me on social media and thank you especially if you’ve ever sent a kind word or tough love my way. You’ve helped me to keep going and filling my space with something creative. I’ll see you back on this space some time next year.