Usually I like to come up with a title that’s eye catching and has enough kick to peak a potential reader’s interest. But, this is the first title that popped into my mind so I decided to stick with it. Since this post is going to be focusing on trends, let’s start off by stating the obvious. Spring = the birth or bloom of something new. Sometimes this birth/bloom is physical and sometimes it’s emotional, spiritual or mental.
I’ve gone back and forth about which season is my favorite but it’s honestly a tie between spring and fall. The weather is finally starting to warm up in Atlanta so that means “legs out” weather has returned…and pollen. While I only enjoy one aspect of that sentence, that’s not the complete reason I’m intrigued by this spring. Sure, I’m excited that style is becoming fun again with colors and patterns making their mark but I’m also excited because I’m moving into my first apartment THIS weekend. Ironically this is taking place during the full moon which happens to be synced with my cycle.
Hopefully I don’t have any squeamish readers but I’ve been vocal about my struggles with my cycle on Instagram. While they have never been irregular (i.e. lasting longer than 7 days or not showing up for months at a time), they have been heavy and painful to the point where I feel sick to my stomach. Apparently a lot of people were not discussing what’s normal or abnormal with cycles over 10 years ago so the belief that painful cramps come with the territory has been passed on for God knows how many years. I thought maybe being unable to handle the pain that rocked my body each month meant I was weak for a long time. After finally getting up the nerve to see a specialist to figure out why I’m always doubled over and nauseous, among other things, once a month, the answer to my questions has resulted in a scheduled diagnostic surgery.
The absolutely ironic thing about this is that I found out I was approved for my apartment and would need surgery within a week of each other in February. And wouldn’t you know? It just so happens I’ll be having surgery five days after I move into my apartment. Since my spring is sprinkled with overwhelming newness, I decided to adorn myself with things that inspire me to want to keep moving forward. Colors and patterns…which I mentioned at the beginning of this post. Yes, I just linked getting a new apartment and having surgery to my renewed interest in colors and patterns. While I still gravitate toward minimal colors, I particularly need the festivity of bolder colors in my life right now.
I’ve been afraid to be independent, to live life outside the confines of my parents’ homes and rules, and I’ve been afraid to find out if I have a condition that not only causes painful cycles but fertility issues. It feels weird and unsteady, moving forward in spite of fear, but here I am doing it anyway. I alternate between gliding over some parts of this change and running around, flailing my arms, but I’m doing it. I’m not expecting things to be easy but I’m reminded it’s going to be worth it. And that I’ll be more than okay even if I’m currently walking/jogging/running in an offbeat pattern.
Who knows, this season may open more doors I didn’t think I was capable of walking through. I can’t foresee the future per say but I know whatever I’m doing in this season is laying down some serious groundwork. So if you ever heard me say what I won’t ever do or wear, let’s chalk it up to I was younger then and didn’t know any better.